Why do you think that relationship change is so hard to handle?
I must admit that in my own experiences with relationships ending or changing I’ve struggled. I know that God empathises, but I can’t always imagine how he completely understands. I know God is always with me, but sometimes I feel alone even still. I know Jesus is my friend, but I miss having someone to put their arms around me and tell me I’m okay. I know Jesus is supposed to be enough for me, but sometimes I worry he might not be.
As Downs writes, ‘Be brave enough to let Jesus into the ripped places.’ I’ve laid on my bed and cried over people and hurts, and I’ve cried with my loneliness and the agony of being misunderstood. I’ve cried until my hair and my pillow are soaking wet. Crying doesn’t actually make me feel better in itself, but it is a vehicle for me to get honest with God. When I tell him all the things I’m afraid of losing or never having again, and I don’t get struck by lightning I think maybe God’s big enough to handle my other stuff too. So I stammer my fears about whether God being my constant companion is enough for me if no one else ever likes me again, and I from somewhere starts the feeling that maybe I’ll be okay. God is with me, he hears me, and he comforts me. Letting Jesus into the ripped places is not only safe but necessary; Jesus knows all about the hurting patches of course, but only by telling him anyway can I let him in to soothe me.
P.S. We are now officially half way through this book chat!
Sums up my feelings perfectly too! I understand the emotions you’ve had. I find myself just wanting a tangible way to actually FEEL He’s there like you would with a human connection.